Re-seeing Dis-ease: A New Possibility
- Leena O'Connor
- 16 hours ago
- 4 min read
This week, something dropped into my body more fully than before.
I was re-listening to Paul Selig’s Channeled Text: A World Made New, and one of the teachings finally landed through my lower three centers- an embodied recognition that ALL is of God.
Now, I’ve known this. We say it all the time. But to actually feel it beyond the mental body or the high heart- dropping down into the solar plexus, into the root, and into the realness of the body: it’s a different thing entirely.
I’ve been moving through my sweet dog Casey’s journey with a tumor on her nose, and I’d been working with the energy of it, the emotions, the possibilities. Trying to attune to what this meant, what was needed.
But something shifted.
Last night, I could suddenly feel the fullness of the divinity in the tumor.
As a presence- not outside of Source, but held within it- in, as, and with Source. This experience isn’t an interruption, a punishment, or even a “lesson.” It is something whole and within the Field of Love itself.
I actually found myself laughing a little. The word tumor kept looping in my mind in Arnold Schwarzenegger’s voice: “It’s not a toomah!” The irreverence helped break something open because let’s be real- the sacred isn’t always solemn. Sometimes it’s ridiculous and holy at the same time.
I’m paraphrasing, but the Guides through Paul Selig said that when ten of us agree on
something, we create momentum for a new possibility. And from that new idea, the experience of a thing can be lifted.
So what if we could re-frame this- release the fear and hold this as something to re-see?
What if the structures and belief systems we’ve wrapped around the word “cancer”: what it means, how we relate to it, what we expect from it—what if all of that is asking to be lifted and reknown?
What if we don’t actually know what this means?
There are so many of us that judge dis-ease as wrong. We try to make it ‘other than’ or outside of Source. It’s what we’ve been taught. I was doing that just a couple of weeks ago with Casey. But there’s a real beauty in allowing the experience, especially when we don’t know from the personality-body what the Soul is requiring or why. Releasing the judgment, even in the form of a quiet “need to heal,” softens the energy. It opens us to a higher alignment.
So what is healing?
When I think of the word “healing,” I don’t think of relief from symptoms or the return to comfort.
To me, healing is full alignment with the Soul, which is a movement that allows Monad energy to flow more freely. That divine current is always there, but our awareness of it fluctuates. Healing means surrendering to the Soul’s requirements for the incarnation and not overriding them to get to an outcome we think we want.
In Esoteric Healing, we’re taught that it’s never about fixing or getting rid of something. The focus is to support energy to flow in the most life-enhancing way possible. Sometimes that leads to the release of dis-ease. And sometimes, it leads to the release of the mortal coil.
I’ve seen it go both ways. It’s only our human judgment that says one is better than the other.
But the Soul doesn’t judge that way. Sometimes, the release of the body is exactly what the Soul requires.
Letting go of the old idea of “healing”
I used to think healing meant being free of discomfort or pain, that it meant everything would feel light and easy.
What I’ve learned is that healing often has more to do with our relationship to the experience: how we hold it, what meaning we assign to it, and how tightly we grip the outcome.
The Ageless Wisdom teaches that dis-ease is the result of inhibited soul force: a restriction or imbalance in the flow of the Soul’s energy. I think sometimes we take that to mean we’ve done something wrong. But really, every area where we experience that inhibition is an invitation to come into deeper balance.
Unraveling the “shoulds”
One of the greatest hindrances to healing is the expectation of how things should be.
Every time we “should” on ourselves, we reinforce an identity rooted in the personality body which may not be aligned with what the Soul is actually intending.
When we can let go of those expectations, even the ones dressed up as “healing goals,” we create more space for realignment.
Healing that happens beyond the physical
I’ve seen many times in session where a person’s energy field clears or rebalances, and the physical symptoms don’t shift right away. That doesn’t mean nothing’s happened.
We are often working at the Causal level, which is the layer of the field where a shift needs to take place in order for the energy to truly root in balance. Depending on the overall flow of the layers of the field and the requirements of the soul, sometimes it takes time to filter down through the layers of the subtle bodies before it fully expresses in the physical body.
I often see it like a cartoon character running ahead of its body. When it stops, it takes a moment for the physical form to catch up. Energy moves faster than matter, and sometimes the body is simply integrating what the Soul has already shifted.
A different way of seeing
Dis-ease is always in service to alignment and expansion. It cannot be otherwise.
There is no such thing as “failing” at healing. What usually causes distress is the expectation of what should happen.
When we can soften into the experience, accept what is without collapsing into it, and release the grasping, we make room for the Soul to lead. We don’t always get to know why, but we can still walk with trust.
The energy becomes more fluid, more graceful. And the light gets in.
And so today, I return again to the Too-mah… and I let it be God.
With love,
Leena
If this reflection stirred something in you or invited a re-seeing of your own experience with dis-ease, I’d love to hear what resonated.
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